Evolution

Life is ever evolving and this evolution triggers a natural change to our mindsets.

Career minded I have never been and have always looked at my place of employment as a means to an end. I am far from a workaholic (obvious by the fact I write this at work), I have never been interested in climbing a corporate ladder or advancement. Still when I took holidays I was always ready to get back to work. I enjoyed my time off, but I was always contented to resume my normal routine.

After this recent holiday stint I am finding it very difficult to be back at work. I am not miserable, but I keep thinking of all I accomplished and how much more I could add to that if I were still home.

Yesterday I became aware that there was a vast difference between how I felt in the past and what I was currently experiencing. What caused this variance? I enjoy my work and the people I work with. I don’t feel worn out and in need of relaxing. Perhaps it is a natural evolution of being a mom. Does a strong desire to nest become ingrained on a woman’s DNA once surrounded by cubs (naturally birthed or not)?

I know for sure that these last two days I have longed to just be able to stay home. Is there some primal instinct at play or do I really dislike my job????